Doing A-Okay

Today I realized that everything is going to be alright.

I spend a lot of (okay, the majority of) my time being stressed out. It can't be healthy, but I have a Type A, OCD, high strung personality and quite frankly I really like being in control of my life.

I had the most amazing winter break touring colleges and going on adventures with my friends, and it felt great to let go of my anxieties for a solid six days. I was worried that coming back to school would bring my struggles back with it, but I actually had an amazing week. Weird right??

I think my brain has finally accepted that letting go of control can be okay sometimes, which is something I have struggled with for years and years. Part of my walk with Jesus has been a tug-of-war of control. Something I'm always told is that God has a plan for me, and that I need to let go and let Him do His thing, but it is SO hard for me to follow through with.

Recently, I've become so frustrated with certain areas of my life that I have given up on them. And you know what happened when I threw in the towel? Everything fell right into place. God's planning and timing will never cease to amaze me.

My summer plans (and beyond) are creeping up on me, but I know that with this new mindset I can have everything under control-- but ONLY by giving up control to the big Guy in the sky, who has it all figured out already.

xoxo,
Rachel

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11